Do you enjoy processes?
We have them for everything.
The educational process. The research process. The legal process. The process of photosynthesis. The adoption process. The composition process. The artistic process. The democratic process. The ordination process (for all you ministers out there). The recovery process. The rehabilitation process. The process of memorization (piano majors, I have felt your pain).
Yes, we have a process for almost everything.
Many people, myself included, like a few processes, but have a long list of those we'd rather skip over. "Can't I just skip to the part where I have the thing I want?"
A long time ago someone told me that if I didn't like the process of memorization and regular practice, I should consider not being a performer. At a totally different time in my life another of my mentors told me that if I didn't enjoy the candidacy process and the process of growing as an administrator, I should consider other avenues of ministry instead of ordination. If you are really passionate about something, you're going to enjoy the process. It will come naturally.
I discovered that I enjoyed the practice of music and not the practice of administration. So I find myself busily working with musicians in church every Sunday - something I genuinely enjoy, even in practice.
The other night I had a chance to embrace a creative process I've come to enjoy.
Writing, practicing new songs, and sharing them with others has become my #1 hobby. It still has a back seat to teaching and other things I've promised to put first . . . but it's important.
We came into an upper room (a fact that gives me chills) and wheeled a piano out in front of a bank of windows. An office building downtown with an empty room and a baby grand piano.
It's an exciting thing - to have worked on something creative for a long time, and then to share it with friends for the first time.
I'm excited to share this new music with some of you, and with my own family.
I don't talk too much about my own family. I don't think they'd appreciate being talked about so much on the internet. I come from a somewhat private family. But I think they'd be ok with me telling you this: My loved ones have moved through adversity with a lot of honesty and grace over the years. And they've taught me a lot about how to be an authentic person with some of this struggle. I'm proud of them. And I am thankful for where I've come from. Some of this music deals with that sense of honesty and thankfulness I get from them. I love them.
And don't you know some people like that?
People who have given you a sense of who you are and where you've come from?
We all have people like that. Sometimes they're members of our family and sometimes not. Either way, their value is something that goes beyond words. Even a wordy girl like me can't really do this topic any justice.
Something else we learn from people who teach us about who we are: They make us understand what it is to be "in process" as a person. They instill a sense of peace within us about the fact that we're not a finished product. And that we never will be.
We're not here because we are perfect.
We're not here to be finished.
We're not here because we meet any kind of written expectation of completeness.
"Your presence is the promise."
"I am a pilgrim on a journey."
It's as simple as that. We're part of a process and the process has no clear ending. The process and the presence of God within it have to be enough for us.
Hi - My name is Sarah, and I'm not a finished product. I bet we have this one thing in common. And that's a good place to start.
Peace & Goodness,